a great reminder

“We can choose to live today free from the failures of yesterday. Forgiveness is not a feeling, it is a commitment. It is a choice to show mercy, not to hold the offense up against the offender. Forgiveness is an expression of love.

To Love a person, I must be willing to lose my relationship with him. Dependently holding onto anyone or anything but God is, in its final form, idolatry.

People were created with a two-fold need – Fellowship with God and Companionship with other human beings. the greatest need of the lonely person is to ensure that he or she is in a right relationship with God, the great physician. He has a cure for every lack and disorder of the human heart, whether it be spiritual or social.”

I will forgive.
And I will move on.

God, do not pass me by.

movingon

I can no longer idealise the past. While my heart aches sporadically with words said, i know God is for me and who is against me? perhaps there were many things that i did, but it takes two hands to clap. i am not going to let your words get me down because you never knew the real me. You met me at the real me, but then perhaps we pulled each other down. For whatever i have done wrong, i’msorry. but do not ever understimate how much i wanted to help u and how much we went through. because we went through so much. from the first time we met…till now. the pain, your pain, illnesses, finances. i stood by you.

don’t say it didn’t mean anything because that would mean you never cared about my friendship. Do not condemn me for what we have done, do not undermine whatever we went through. because that is the last thing that i want. at least in the times we weretogether, you were my inspiration. you inspired me to do better. and i hoped that at least for the time we were together, i was yours. i grew to love your apple and photography and i found the beauty in you despite our own many failings. so please even as we part, do not put me down. i will never do that to you. i will hold on no longer.

God knows my heart.
And with that it is time to move on. With every action done, consequences must be faced. so i am facing them now. i am going to go through it bravely because with that i will become beautiful.

A lesson learnt. To grow up, to be more understanding. Painful.
but ultimately it is spiritually good for me.

no more restoration.
just picking up the pieces.

A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you…

If you make the Most High your dwelling-
even the Lord, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways
they will lift you up in your hands
so that you will not strike your foot
against a stone…

Because (she) loves me, says the Lord,
“I will rescue her;
I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name.
She will call upon me, andI will answer her;
I will be with her in trouble,
I will deliver her and honour her,
With long life will I satisfy her
and show her my salvation.”

claiming upon the promises of psalm 91.