It has been awhile since I’ve gone to the beach. Even longer and more belated, however, was the meeting up of old friends. I finally met my favouritepeople. It’s much harder to meet as life has taken us to different routes and we find ourselves in different places (as compared to seeing each other almost everyday or everyOtherday in the past). But my heart skips at the thought and in BIG HOPE that truefriends stay true no matter what. And so I can only say that the beach was much brighter and the skies absolutely lovelier with the presence of the ones whom I have seen grown up (beforemyveryeyes!). Thank you for never giving up on me. (:
Today, I realise there is much to say but I do not say it because I don’t know where or how to start. In the course of the tumultuous month and my tragicomic life, I have run out of words. They flee me. You see, I do sayang them very much, but you don’t say or show affection much to people whom you’d rather scold/insult as a form of love.
So today, I regrettably frighten a frisbeeboy who falls fullbodied (muscular, tanned) onto Chris. I am not mean. But when frisbeeboy plunges on top of her while she lies on a beach towel, with her bathing suit on, I want to send him away. I want to give him a piece of my mind and tell him off, but I stop short after reprimanding him because I don’t want to embarrass her. Today, in a bid to show love, I chide Cheryl allthetime and tell her not to be clumsy, and not to lose her way. I am, however, only short of a car and drivinglicense because I would have (without needing reason) sent her all the way to Tanglin for her familydinner. But most of all, I spend 25minutes and 52seconds on the phone ordering a pizza. It is the longest pizza order I’ve ever done.
Today, the past comes back and sometimes I wonder about whatifs and wish for maybeifs. Still, it is my own cross to bear. I only hope for a day when I am able to accept the grace that is overflowing upon my life. It is abit of an anomaly even for me to believe and trust that onedayyoujustforget. But God is faithful, and I’ll move on in blind faith.
More on the beach when pics come in.
