God

carry me despite the dull ache inside. im sad i’m scared. give me that extra bit of strength to turn this around and persist. to keep me teachable and make me whole again.

turn me on.

OMG. How gorgeous is this bookshelf? This makes me want to move out, rent a really nice grungelike apartment slash warehouse to escape and live in there forever. !!

Gosh. Having so much free time is refreshing because it allows me to remember what I like doing best. Or what inspires. And what makes my heart palpitate. (and it still does!) Now, this does not mean I hate working because I’m always working. Because I enjoy what I do and perform best in highstress situations. Because when we’re not in school, we still have to plan lessons and mark papers and be on the verge of tears when our students misbehave or underperform.

Yet, I cannot help but be secretlydelighted that I have two months to myself to fulfill my writing obligations and indulge in feature and travel writing. You see, for in the chaos of school it causes you to focus on what you have to do and you forget what you’d like to do for yourself. I want to buy goodbooks (any suggestions??) and read and be inspired alloveragain.