I think I really know what JL is going through: I’ve never really had the opportunity to meet with her & gettoknowher, but we’ve had fleeting encounters & dramapractices together. and silent readings of her life & views & thoughts & preciousencounters with her bestfriend has left me always quietly fond of her. while it can never be a direct empathy of her situation, it’s closerthanclose enough what with the recent family drama events on my side & it struckhome.! i can never understand WHY separation slash divorce is not an option when the marriage is alreadyinshambles and if everyone wld be better off. obviously on the religious pov, i know the answers. but the loved ones i was going through this with do not know God (except 4the manofthehouse) and the betrayal has happened over&over again. so it was with quiet humility when i was told to bite my lips & simply pray 4 restoration. why? i didnt/cldnt condone what he did & having gone through the pain together with D (80% of my family’s initials begin with D!) & seeing their hearts break a milliongazillion times, restoration & rebuilding were the furthest thing on my mind.
so while the wife insisted in divorce & was filled with rage/hurt/bitterness, we were told to never give up in appealing for unity & forgiveness & grace & love. even if everything were to fall apart. even when arrows started shooting @ my mom. and i realised when we gathered that it was true & that i had no right to withold my grace/respect/love fm anyone. it had to take a big dramamama family confrontation. and god reminds me of my pride (as a girl) & how there are so many things i have yet to learn. it’s always about balance and nottoomuch of something. so, i am FOR healing (and r&r) taking place – in bth my life & my family’s !!!
the war has died down for a week now. while familyretractors say “mind your own business”, we have stood firm and hung around. and I too have realised that my heart is holdingup & reacts better because with the many things that have happened (subsequently, following,) the struggling doesnt leave a permanent cut like it used to do before.
and surprisngly, things will ALWAYS twist&turn. there IS now rebuilding taking place!
