I am quietly humbled & blessed & def. feel so undeserving by what  jan said. Reallyreally, she lifts up my soul & I am blessed by her enthusiasm & boldness & courage. It was funny because I think both of us talk veryquickly & loudly (at least for me) and I could not help but smile quietly inside (from time2time) because we were updating each other with our entirelifestories within twohours in fastfoward speed. harhar. AND she got firsthand of what happened that very day when I had my first interviews which I think I screwedup! But it’s ok and I am glad I didn’t panicandjumpdown- because that shows I’m ever-evolving. heh.

and so jan, I have to write this in response to you because your sharing about when-we-first-met made me realise that despite my messypastlife and dayswhenI carried toomuchluggage, He was still evident and present. sometimes I think life moves on so quickly and things happen in such an escalating speed. I don’t stop and stock-take enough, and disillusionment with god and life can settle very quickly (if/when I loose hope) and it covers my heart. so I’ve been fighting very hard to break through the tissue paper surrounding bitsandpieces of my otherwise/once cynical and tired heart. and to anyone who says it’s easy, it isn’t. it’s alot of conscious effort to be made , especially for someone as illdisciplined as me!! but everchanging and everprogressing – littlebylittle. AND ThankYou for the gummybear chocolate crepes.

Ohh I forgot to tell you about the dream that I had. I wish it was just yesterday because I remember I could still see your handwriting on a card you gave me. You gave me a card in my dream, and I remember going to you and I have a picture in my head of us talking – but what we spoke about: I can’t remember! I must make sure I write them down the next time it happens. I like dreaming of people whom I don’t meet or talk to often (but it gets me very antsy to find out how they are after that)! All I remember after the dream was of me wondering howyouwere, and then you randomly commented on my blog to say hi. : )