There are so many things I want to do and/or so many things to say, but I don’t know where to start.  

I should be in bed. I should be writing notes, or better yet, penning thank you cards for lovely journals (that i’ve already written in!) and simpson magnetic boards. A farewell letter is also in order. I should be lying on the couch, or in my bed in my pin-striped pjs and praying. I should I want to I will -

It’s strange to think how time passes. It’s almost overwhelming. Yet, there’s been a certain sense of adrenaline whenever I realise I do not know what will happen the day after or in the year to come, but he leads and he guides so I will go around and collect experiences and pick up moments to put in my pockets.

I am starting to discover that it’s important to keep certain things/moments/time sacred. I was in a train today and heard a little girl beside me sob into her pink-coloured school bag. She looked about 10, but I’ve always been bad with numbers so she could have been older or younger for that matter. I think she was having a very bad day. The little indian girl took a seat beside me, buried her head in her bag and started crying into the pink padded shoulder pads.

I had absolutely no idea what to do!! I think we’re not meant to speak to strangers on the train or something - because people started staring at me when I tried to whisper and ask if she was okay. When she didn’t look up, I gave her an awkward pat and squeeze before I got off. I still think she’s 10. And for a 10-year-old to be crying so badly broke my heart because she must be having one hellavu day for a 10-year-old. I hope she feels better now.

I like it whenever life is put in perspective for me, and I remember who I am and why I’m here (to exist, in life). This is a list of things I am going to call sacred from now on:

1. Rain
2. Getting to bed before 12
3. Catching a show or a sitcom on tv
4. Thinking about wanting to go swimming
5. Journals and cream pages
6. Moments with strangers
7. Pig’s trotters in Vinegar
8. Treasured time with treasured people
9. Having dinner with my parents
10. Pearls + jelly + milk bubble tea

I also crushed my toe and it’s in a band-aid and bleeding from the sides. I think the nail is going to fall off but I’m too afraid to see a doctor because Di’s strange, scary boyfriend says the doctor’s gonna pull it out with some strange, scary contraption. Ok, I’m just kidding about the strange boyfriend part, but the strange contraption thing stands true for now until I have the courage to rip the band-aid from my toe.

Wish me luck.